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Don’t Become a Nurse if You Don’t Like Taking Care of People
My title seems obvious to me, but I feel the need to share this advice to the world after meeting so many nurses that simply should not be nurses, or at least not pediatric nurses. I am not a nurse. I...
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Life in a Blender
Life has been way too lifelike lately. So much thrown at me so quickly. I feel like I’m trapped in a blender, all my senses and events chopped up and mixed up in the most confusing and unappetizing...
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My body is talking to me
I thought this little guy’s tummy was a much better image to share my own :) (Photo credit: Wikipedia) My body is finally talking to me, or I am finally able to interpret what it says, not sure which....
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My bones are tired
Sleepy time (Photo credit: mag3737) Fatigue. It’s such a simple word unless you have it and understand the depth of the meaning on your body and brain. I am weary. Struggling to think. Almost called...
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I am such a mess and need to rant
I can already see my therapist’s face as she nods, scrunches up her eyes a bit, and quickly writes notes about me tonight. I can already hear her saying it will all be fine, that I’m being too hard on...
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Throwing Life a Curve Ball
Usually Life throws those curve balls at me, so I decided to switch that up. I have done something new and completely out of character for myself, as an experiment, to see what happens. I joined a...
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Being Good to Me
This is not me or the machine I use, but something similar. Curves uses hydraulics, not weights (Photo credit: Wikipedia) My body is moving. I don’t have to fight so hard to get myself moving. Mornings...
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my brain is fun
Or my brain is bored. Or my brain is just an a$$hole. I’ve been feeling good, feeling strong, handling life and even enjoying it. So my brain stirred up a good dose of obsession. But try again, I can...
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Over my Head, or in my head
Feeling drained, no time to recover. Triggered yesterday by cardio nurse shocking me with EKG. I wasn’t prepared for it, and the room was weird, with the exam table facing the wall, not the door, so I...
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My Heart is Healing, in so many ways
I was told 15 years ago that I had a problem with my heart valve, causing it to beat too quickly. They tried me on so many meds back then, beta blockers and others with terrible results. I felt so sick...
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Mindfulness and depression, part 2
I want to expand on my comment in part 1, that being mindful is really about being bodyful. The way I understand the methods in this book, “The Mindful Way Through Depression” by Williams, Teasdale,...
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Triggered at doctor’s office, panic
Triggered at doctor’s today, it was big one. still coming back down to earth. Had a good talk with Hubby last night, not feeling angry any more, I think we both recovered from the big fight the other...
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Breaking the Night Snack habit – day 1
I want to stop over eating at night time. There I identified a behavior I want to change. I have been unable to change it for many years now. Years? Yes I think it is now years of this. I found this...
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Breaking the Night Snack habit – Night 2
Night 1, I still had an entire sleeve of club crackers before bed, but I slept in bed, and did not have anything after the crackers, though I wanted some ice cream very badly. Its peppermint time of...
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Habit breaking, Night 3, and body image
Happy Thanksgiving! But this isn’t about thanksgiving. I enlisted Hubby’s help to not tempt me with food after 10pm. He agreed it would be good for both of us and would try. He’s usually asleep by then...
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Reached my limit, migraines as indicators
My body let me know in not so subtle ways. I woke up last night with worst migraine in years maybe decades. Complete with vision loss, numb,tingly face, arms, hands, endless vomiting. The pain is...
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This isn’t making me stronger
And I’m not so sure it isn’t killing me. This is making me angry. Fed up. Scared even. Definitely not stronger. My mini-vacation saved my mind and restored my will to keep fighting. 3 days soaking in a...
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Suffering is what I know
I’ve never been without pain or fear. Ever. I have PTSD from 16 years of living with a cruel, demented, self-serving psychopath. But what did I have while the trauma was happening? All of this research...
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Whats happening to me
Killer headache pain. Visual disturbance with trails and flashes. And now – the entire right side of my body, right eye/cheek, right arm, right mid-section, right leg goes into spasm. The spasms aren’t...
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Hemiplegic migraines – not a stroke
Exam from neurologist has preliminary diagnosis as hemiplegic migraine for me. I had no idea my brain could do this. Its completely fascinating all while being completely terrifying and debilitating....
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